With growth comes change

These past 6 months have been really rough, I am consumed in fear. I feel like I have hit a barrier to growth while I sit in fear of the future. I am fearful of growing to be honest because with growth comes change. Something that has been bothering me is the reality of growing up and becoming independent. I am scared to become independent and less dependent on my parents. I am scared to have physical distance between my parents and me because I irrationally believe that they would love me less. Though I know this is not true and that I have parents that would love me no matter the distance between us. I tend to future trip and cause myself a great amount of stress. I am realizing that with this experience I am still worthy and capable of a successful future. My parents have always told me that I am far more than capable of growing and blossoming.

My higher self has been hard to access with all of this fear. As time goes on I am realizing more and more that only I can truly pull myself out of this fear. Yes, I can have support to guide me, but it is up to me to make the decisions to take action. Whether that means loving myself for where I am at, honoring the experiences I am going through, or learning from the fear and challenging the fear. I have to remind myself that I am capable of pushing through this bump in the road as it only serves me for the greater good. Life wouldn't allow me to have this experience if it didn't think I could handle it. Everything has its meaning and serves purpose. Mostimes you wont find peace with the meaning untill later along your journy.

As I am continuing on my journey I always find myself coming back to my inner relationship. No matter how many people surround you, your inner relationship is what matters most. As it is the fondation to keeping yourself grounded and will serve as a light in your life. Sometimes we forget that we already have what we need within and what were seeking for is within. I am learning to trust the process and that I've got all that I need within.

Much love, light, and peace,

Sarah Field