The Power of Self Care

Something I do that is a part of my self-care ritual is taking baths. I find them soothing and very calming to the self. To my knowledge, I started taking baths at around 18 months of age. That is when I was in the care of my foster parents Chris and Rob, who are now my current parents. The ones I call Mom and Dad. The first year and half of my life I had experienced a lot of trauma and neglect. This has forever impacted my life and forever will. Learning how to manage and work alongside trauma and neglect will be a lifelong journey.

In my therapy, I am doing parts work so learning how to find inner peace with my younger, older, wiser, childish, etc. parts of self. I have been finding that my 5th-grade self had been in the way of accessing my toddler parts and baby self. Since starting parts work I realized that I have a very hard time connecting with and having compassion/love for my baby parts. At this moment I am feeling compassion for my baby parts.

As I was in the bath tonight I mourned and leaned into the discomfort of feeling that oh so wall dropping breakthrough moment... that feeling of having that thick foggy layer, that has been suffocating you for quite some time now, be lifted. I feel as if I’ve shed a layer of skin, “I can breathe!” As I shouted! A weight lifted off my shoulders.

I felt a real connection with my 5th-grade self. That I was able to deepen my senses with that self and feel empathy and compassion for her younger self. Just have to remember that I can be at peace within and that I can love from within out. The universe has got our back!

Love,

Sarah is healing! 🦋💕